it rhymes...ngeeeeee...

.................... try as much as possible to remain positive and motivated regardless of how i am being negatively perceived. perhaps i did not explain myself clearly.  perhaps.....aaarrgghhh...so frustrating...!!!! when i'm seen as doing something terrible of which i did not do, it cuts deep. it would be more victorious if i had actually done whatever i'm being accused of, but unfortunately that was not the case.

usually when i try to explain, im seen as being defensive.  when i dont, i am easily misunderstood. either way...cannot win.

so......rule of thumb, do not fight fire with fire coz the the risk of fatality is higher...(heeeyyy....it rhymes...fire...higher....ngeeeee)

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well you know...it is that age thingy...

i know i can't be a travel writer.  sucks at details and planning.  if i dont have my dear friend cik gee with me, i wd surely die on foreign soil!  highly dependable on her on all the planning and places to visit.  i paid what was due to get me there and i know i wont starve as we have all the meals included.  in fact all my trips with her was due to her careful planning of places to visit and most importantly within the budget.

we were in china, southern China.  Guangdong and Hunan from 26th April - 1st May 2013.  there were 6 of us including cik gee and i.  visited many places...mountain tracking most of it.  no prior preparation and my fitness level was very poor so i ended up looking at the asses of my other group members cos i was always the one left behind.  they are a lot younger and well.... i need to justify for being left behind and age factor works every time..hehehehehe

BM 101

arif does not speak malay that well.  he can speak malay but i suppose he needs to think of the words to express himself....perhaps he might be translating it.  i do not understand what happen but he doesn't seem to have a grasp of the malay language.  daddy works with dewan bahasa, mama was with dewan bahasa for good 6 years and malay language is after all our mother tongue.  yet, arif...hmmm...he expresses himself better in english...

BM 101 a few days ago....

arif  :  Ma...what does 'menguap' means?  does it mean...when u like someone?

mama :  nothing of that sort. No arif....menguap means...yawn...when u r sleepy or tired... and where do u get the idea that 'menguap' is when u like someone...?

arif  :  dont know...just learn about the word

hai la arif wei....

BM 101 2 weeks ago....

Arif  :  Ma...what is  the malay word for 'nerd'?  is it 'Nerda'?

Mama  :  Nerda?   nerda?   seriously?   not nerda arif...(errmmmm...honestly mama turned blank....)...sheesh,,,,arif....perhaps it is...lurus bendul..

Arif  ;  blink...blinkkk......

mama equally blink...blink....

Hello again

it is March 2016.  my last entry was in 2014.  how time flies when you are having fun.  having fun? who...me? yeah there were some fun...if you really look for it.

i was busy with work for the past 2 years.  new boss with new ideas and new approaches and of coz, new and different expectations.  enjoyed the challenges given to me. im blessed with a supportive and energetic team, an understanding family (although there were many complaints and rants along the way, but an understanding loved ones. coz mama had to work....love you to bits).

i have been neglecting this space too long.  just cant find the passion. shelving it not shutting it down though...

will continue to jot down my entries here.  will make it a point to do that as often as i can.  who knows, when im old and getting senile...this wd be a good reference point for me (if i can still remember the password...)

oh btw, arif will turn 12 this year...  will sit for his UPSR in september (i think).  haih...still trying to make him do his homework on daily basis.  so much to share about him.  he is now taller that Marsya...(my dotter....his elder sister...you know...).

Marsya is in UiTM Alor Gajah studying mass comm. Atikah is in Shah Alam continuing her degree. yeah...in mass comm too.  Afiq...is a salaried man...with flexi working hours...working for a company in subang jaya.  Still passionate with hip hop music and performs with his crew on the side line.  has his own tshirt label 'Top Notch'.  the father of my children.... is well with occasional hiccups here and there (health wise) and ever so supportive of me.

there you go...2 years in a nutshell...