ami is married now

a new chapter in life for ami...

ami should be going for her honeymoon esok, in kk. im sure she is very happy at the moment. tak sampai seminggu bernikah dengan amirul. inai masih merah di jari. sengih sampai ke telinga masih berterusan. sibuk menyiapkan kelengkapan rumahtangga. tengah belajar2 masak juga agaknya. her wedding was last saturday, 29/1/11. the 1st wedding untuk cucu ghazali duyob and khadijah haji mustaffa. many glitches.....of which easily tackled if we have more manpower. but come to think of it...the glitches made the wedding more memorable....hehehe...(cover line je ni...). what the heck. although i was dead tired...my body ached all over...tapi puas hati. coz ami was a radiant and beautiful pengantin and yes...happy. looking at her laughed...enjoying having her pics taken, going through the whole wedding rituals and surrounded by family and friends...makes all the effort worthwhile. penat pun penat lah...so fulfilling when the bride's parents pun happy juga. although it was drizzling...the guests kept on coming. food was cukup-cukup...fantastic!!! hate wastage. balance lauk cukup untuk family members.

with my sis and the bride masa malam berinai

the pengantin dengan the gedik cousins and friends

ami is like my own child. she was born when i was in form 3. took care of her from confinement throughout school days. kakak tak de maid those days, so...yours truly was part time helper. feed her, mandikan dia, tocangkan rambut dia, take her to the playground...tadah muntah dia.....yup all those. those wide thick glasses during school days...hehehe....ami's brother, azizul was also under my care...well azizul is another story.

ami ni, org tua2 kata....keras hati le juga, sensitive, intelligent, hard working, simple in dressing yet elegant...kadang2 rasa her dress sense is like her mama's (unlike adik dia, ema), keep things to herself, manja......and yes, realised this recently...quite witty.

when she joined the same company i work with, sayu juga sebab....i helped raised her and now she is my office mate. awkward too coz how will she address me at the office? lawak juga....nobody knows about the relations except the HR people. we gave 2 months before the staff find out about our ties, but it was nearly 3 years later bila ada makcik sorang kat ofis yang start spreading the info (macam tak de kerja lain, nak cari popularity vote kot). kalau tidak, mungkin sampai sekarang, tak ramai yang tau.

it broke my heart when i see her cry during those 'difficult months' in her life coz i know she deserves better. tak sampai hati tengok. mau ku santau je those yang hurt her! and now all those bad memories dah jauh tinggal and she has amirul now. what is the odd of that? nama pun lebih kurang sama. rupa paras pun lebih kurang sama. sesuwei sangat....akak likeeeee.....

ami & amirul....

tambah sorang lagi dalam family ni

my doa for your happiness ami. dont ever take things for granted. sayang menyayangi, hormat menghormati and perhaps could start by addressing yr hb dengan panggilan 'abang'. be humble...tapi jgn sampai kena buli. ikhlas and sentiasa sabar...sabar...sabar...

my ben 10 is bandaged...

sometimes arif forgets to be careful especially when he is with girls. while i was upstairs bz with the preparation for ami's wedding this coming weekend, he crashed into the sliding door while running around the house with his cousins, yeah...girls. what i saw was broken glasses splatered on the floor and yes, blood. so much of blood. he was bleeding profusely and the blood was from his head. when u see yr child bleeding, there was only one thing to do, stop it as fast as i can and i cant afford to be panicky. he was blue, pale...cold hands and feet. he was about to doze off. he was in shock. i dont want him to go into seizure. i was trying to stay as calm as possible and i dont want him to see me out of control. he must not see me break down. i said many times, "arif dont sleep, arif tak boleh tidor. u must stay awake or else arif pengsan. he cooperated. he said "...ok..ok...arif tak tidor." "mama, i did not see the door. it was invisible." mak ngah and amirul's (ami's fiance) quick thinking helped me take arif to the emergency centre, sjmc, subang jaya.

arif displayed strength throughout the ordeal. strength that i never knew is capable of a 6 yr old. strong like his ayah when need to endure pain. he did not cry although the nurses were cleaning his wounds. i know how painful it is but he remain quiet. perhaps he was trying to comprehend what had happened, the strange surrounding at the emergency centre. i was worried coz i cant see his reaction. it is more worrying that way. it is normal to cry for a child who is going through such pain. it is ok to cry. it is ok to scream...it is ok. But he remained quiet. when i asked him what was he thinking....he said, 'nothing'. hold his hand most of the time and assuring him all will be ok in no time. he finally whispered to me, faintly, "mama...it hurts...very-very hurt". Oh God, please...i am willing to go through the pain anytime instead of my baby... it is so heart wrenching to see your baby lying there in pain. where the hell is the doctor?????? told arif, i need to go outside for a while. left him a few minutes. need to take some breather. outside, i saw a familiar face. ami was there, although took me a few seconds to recognise her.

my ben 10, no need omnitrix arif

while waiting for the surgeon, still can give a smile for the camera, although faintly

we had to wait for the specialist, a plastic surgeon as the wounds were quite serious. the longest hour ever in my life. he was shivering and screaming with pain when the doctor injected anesthetic into all the wounds before she started the stitching. there were an average of 5-7 stitches at every cut and there are 7....yes...that much!

the stitching

called nik aman after maghrib and when he reached the hospital with marsya, arif was done and ready to go home. marsya was all teary eyes when she saw little brother like that and was with him all the time. thank you mak ngah, ami and amirul for being there.

ready to go home....

Ehem...ehem....

Arif loves to have shots of him taken wearing his Ben 10 omnitrix, using my sony hphone. All sorts of pose with his beloved omnitrix (betul ke eja ni? belasah la)....


Amongst those many shots of him, there was one of mine wearing a bridal crown...(taken while helping out my niece, or rather, nyibuk to choose her wedding dress)....i said to Arif, while pointing at the screen of my hphone...


"look Arif, dont i look pretty wearing a crown?"

Arif with a glance on the hp screen, said........"mama, that is not a crown......., its a TIARA..."

ehem...ehem..."oh a TIARA.."

What a way to go...

Satu Malaysia is talking about the gruesome murder of 4 unfortunate malays. Datuk Soosilawati Lawiya (DSL) and 3 other men, close aides of DSL were murdered in cold blood..and semua rentetan peristiwa which led to the death of the 4 were splashed all over the media for all to read and digest. Syaitan memang diikat dalam bulan puasa tapi manusia is beyond that bila dah buat the same MO sejak sekian lama. When were are angry, we sometimes can't see the implication of our actions and as expected. some voices out there are igniting ethnic cleansing, politicising it and macam2 lagi rubbish talk. Semua nak membawa ke arah feeling of remorse and hate.

DSL, nama yg disegani dalam industri kosmetik tempatan. Perhaps she was one of the first few wanita yg berjaya dalam peniagaan ini. Made her fortune from hard work. Im sure she was a shrewd businesswoman and i have heard talks about how she handled her business. Tapi itu business, must be firm and shrewd or else kena pijak dengan orang lain. Kalau tidak macam mana nak build her business and at the same time raising her children, being a single parent. and all. Nothing else but my full admiration for such grit and determination.

Met her in person a few times in my line of work. Nouvelles Vissage was the main sponsor for a program called Anugerah Hari Ibu, anjuran majalah Keluarga-Seri Dewi, terbitan Karangkraf. I represented my company as one of the co-sponsors. During the press conference to announce the program, she came alone, no entourage. Her speech was loosely scribbled on a piece of paper perhaps torn from her note book or exercise book, perhaps wrote it on the way there. Simple and straight to the point. She was on first name basis with the editors and yes, she was friendly and humble (love her accessories though...hehehehh). There were other occasion where i met her again. i was amongst the crowd especially in events organised by Kumpulan Karangkraf

The last time our path crossed was on 1st August 2010. Sat beside her at my niece's wedding reception. She was in pink kaftan and selendang. Simply stunning and yes, i like her accessories then too. She came with her husband, yes the 3rd publicity shy husband. Friendly and introduced herself to me even before i do. Was about to start a conversation, but soon after she was whisked away and placed at the high table with the bride and groom.

And now she's gone. Due to her high profile status, he missing person report by her family was picked up by the media and it went out of control when the police found her car and started to pick-up suspects, the rest are the stories u read in the newspapers. Right now it is believed that there could be about 20 persons dead committed by the same suspects. 20! Crazy!!!! Terlalu ramai dah dibunuh, bakar and dibuang abu...another 1 or 3 does not make any difference. Kalau ditangkap, with enough evidence and put on trial, the suspects akan turun naik mahkamah for all 20 cases and they will surely live longer than most of us under the very care and money paid by the tax payers. And if found guilty pun, mati sekali je. Tak kan la nak gantung for 20 times kot!

As for DSL, she worked hard for her fortune. She was merely demanding for her money, rightfully hers. We will do the same when another decided not to honour their side of the bargain. Due to her high profile status, the police have to work extra hard on the case and the media frenzy added more to the pressure and right now the police is re-opening cases which have links to the main suspect. Kalau DSL is just like one of us, would the police take any heed to the missing person report placed by the family???

Her kampung folks say that DSL was a kind hearted and giving person. Will always extend her help whenever she can. Perhaps this is her destiny. Helping the dead? Helping other families of the dead find answers...Putting a stop to a monster, evil man but at the expense of losing her life. Kita tak tahu caturan Allah SWT...

My prayers goes to DSL's children, her mother, husband and the rest of her family. They lost a loving mother, daughter, wife. May they find strength during this trying time.

Al-Fatihah.....

I don't ask for much

"mama tak nak banyak...just send me for holiday round the world or at least a different destination of my choice every year. this year marsya sponsor, next year, atikah and the year after...abang. i will take arif with me buat teman and also angkat all my shopping bags and luggage."

"eeee....mama!!!!", jeritan suara anak yang kurang senang dengan hajat mamanya...

imagine.....along the way from all those trips i went to and about to plan for the next trip, arif will say..."mama! London again???? or Florence again??? we went there just last January. lets go Disney World la maaaaa.........." "I want to meet Mickey, Minnie...." "when u have your own kids ask them to take u there. As for mama, i want to go London...again!" arif with his longest muncung ever, displaying his displeasure and annoyance for such remark from beloved mama.

....haih.....syoknya berangan....FREE ALLLL THE WAAAAAYYYYYY......

hish....bersawang blog ni...

uhuk..uhuk...uhuk....(batuk mengade....) habuk menusuk kerongkong and hidung....Extreme injection of fresh air is needed here....seriously. My blog is so the berhabuk....sungguh lama tak update. bukan tak de stori mori nak distorikan..tapi virus M(alas) bermaharajalela.......

What more with the recent big event at the work place which required TLC and big attention from hot mama here....and other deadlines...and other worldly miserable issues....no choice but to shelve my blog for a while...

but i will be back...with a vengeance (really ar????)...updating u people with the latest happenings (and the penings....like as if)....wait ar....next change ar.....like.....sooooooooooon......!!!!!!(the soonest....heheheh....)

baju apa?

my normal days usually end with short conversation with arif before we doze off to slumberland. while lying in bed, we would chat about amongst others, what he did in school and which cartoons he watched today. we would be giggling as we poke fun at each other, tickling him. sometimes i would be saying things that crossed my mind and arif would respond in his own way.....

"hhhmmmm...arif, mama tak tau la pakai baju apa esok...." and arif responded, dengan selambanya....."baju sekolah...."

Berdesing

last nite, right about 1 am, blackout lagi...tetiber the house sangat sunyi...berdesing telinga due to the silence. mmmppphhhh.....ala...panas le pulak. "mama...why is it so dark?" Arif has woken up and sitting on the bed. I said, 'letrik tak de." "Oooo...letrik dah habis?"

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Every shing a ling a ling...when they started to sing...

karen carpenter's soothing, magical voice is in the background. swaying to the music of the carpenters (yup, 70's...so sue me!). me, staring at my laptop, trying hard to write or at least add 3 more pages to my very 1st novel. i have this strategy in my drive to get this novel complete as soon as i can....at least 3 pages/day x 6 months = 540 pages. My very 1st novel by yr end!!!

Hmmmm...that sucks! the same strategy for the past year, heheheh...

OMG!!!! ideas and thoughts seems to be pouring at the odd hours and at weird places. in the car, while having lunch, in the loo...jeeezzzz...(actually more ideas when in the loo). Cik Ketumbar said that i need to get it jotted down as soon as the ideas are gushing in (in the loo???) Yes...i did that, if i happened to have paper and pen handy. i do have a note book in the car and it is difficult to scribbble while driving and hoping the ilham will stay long enough for me to write it down when i reach the office. when the ilham is pouring, i welcome traffic jams so much...!!!!

and now...where was i?

"every sha la la la, every wo oo still shine.....every shing a ling a ling when they started to sing...so fine....when they get to the part where he's breaking her heart....it can really make me cry, just like before....its yesterday once more......................"

AF lagi?.... Lagi2 AF....

while watching AF....eh...yang ke berapa ni? tak kira la tapi same resipi je...budak2 nyanyi, juri give comments..the same....want to switch channels but my girls want to watch and laugh at the contestants...cheh...bebudak sekarang...anak aku juga....(mesti ikut perangai ayahnyer....heheheh)...anyway, 5th week (it seems) tapi rasa macam tengok konsert sekolah....was hoping that standard ada sikit atas ke...nope...dah tu bila budak2 ni kena voted out, they blame the viewers for not voting...cheh...ada aku kisah? kalau performance budak2 ni ada elok jugak pun... wa vote punnnn.....macam biasa komen adlin straight to the face...blunt, take it or leave it attitude, like gooooodddddd la...tapikan apasal rambut adlin so the aawww..awww? remos yang cover separuh his forehead. His comments macam brutal tapi from neck up, sungguh jambu...eeeuuuwwww. Kalau macam Pak Nil nak cover dahi dengan juraian rambut yang trendy...maka projection Pak Nil....ala-alaaaaaa nice guy la.....Juri jemputan...well, jemput2 je la. Kenapa ASTRO dok buat lagi AF ni? clearly, not many followers and voters...sponsors ada ke? ntah!...jeeeeezzzzz.....mama...continue with yr work oi!!!!..(bila kepala hotak tepu...cakap pun merapu)